Much of what I am about to write is most likely super…charged with emotion, static, and controversy. 

I don’t write all this to start any sort of debate, to make anyone feel bad, or to make anyone mad! 🙂 

I write it because in the very early morning hours, after I fed Talia, I couldn’t sleep. These things walked through my brain, and my heart. And so here it is, My Heart on a Page…

And I write this because years ago, I so deeply needed to know these things…these things that I am slowly learning and growing in. 

I don’t know more than you all. I know that. But here is a compilation of the places I am coming to…


Our world today is full…so full of ill health. Most of us have something that plagues us. Many of us have multiple health issues, and for some of us, these things are life-threatening. 

After my mother died of cancer about 5 years ago, I sort of went off the deep end with “natural” living. I freaked out about anything chemical. I dove deep into the world of nutrition and going back to the earth. I was bitterly opposed to anything that could cause these diseases in any way. 

I went into fear.

And I went into anger.

Five years later, and God has brought me to a very, very different place. I am still walking forward to learn more and more truth and balance. More of how He wants me to live.

Instead of writing out my story (again), I am simply going to speak of four things that I believe make enormous changes for good in our health. These four things are coming from my own experience and the experiences and lives of others. Real people. 

Which is why I believe. 🙂


Get rid of sin.

I am calling it “sin”, so that this does not turn anyone away. But for me, there was incredible freedom and power in calling these things what they were: evil spirits. Don’t freak out. Jesus told His own friend Peter “Get behind Me, Satan…”. We have been taught to freak out at the very word “demons”. And we leave demonic stuff to those who live in dark corners of the earth. 

Well, the New Testament calls fear a spirit. So when I was pushed to it, I did it. I told the spirit of fear to get out in Jesus’ Name. And it went. My anxiety and fear left. My stomach healed. My chronic gut issues went away. When I get stressed and anxious again, my gut flares up. It’s a very easy way to realize that I have opened the door to fear and anxiety again. Sometimes it’s as simple as freaking out about my work load for the day! 

I also got rid of many other things. My health dramatically improved. Call it what you want. But get rid of it! it’s so amazing to be free of things that plagued me for so many years. I got some real help and if you want to know where, email me.

The Bible says that a broken spirit dries the bones. Your bone marrow is life to you. If your bone marrow becomes ill, you become ill. There are so many scriptures that bring us to truth in realizing that sin makes us sick! Amen. I am so excited and grateful to have this powerful truth in my life!!


This next subject is so exciting to me. So awesome! I’m going to start with some verses…I was reading this just this morning and getting so excited again!

There are different gifts, but the same Spirit. There are different ministries, but the same Lord. There are different activities, but the same God produces each gift in each person. A manifestation of the Spirit is given to each person for the common good: to one is given a message of wisdom through the Spirit, to another, a message of knowledge by the same Spirit, to another, faith, by the same Spirit, to another, gifts of healing by the one Spirit, to another, the performing of miracles, to another, prophecy…

And it goes on. This is for today. For us. Now. 

When Jesus was about to go back to heaven, He told his disciples:

Go into all the world and preach the gospel to all creation. Whoever believes and is baptized will be saved, but whoever does not believe will be condemned. And these signs will accompany those who believe: In my name they will drive out demons; they will speak in new tongues; they will pick up snakes; if they should drink anything deadly, it will not harm them; they will lay hands on the sick, and they will get well.

To me, that’s clear. We are to lay our hands on the sick for them to get well. We are to ask the elders of the church to come anoint us with oil to get well. There is a power coming from being baptized in the Holy Spirit, that is here for healing. Physical healing of our bodies. And there are many testimonies of this being a very real and effective thing. Today. 

I don’t read where Jesus told His followers that after He leaves, and gives them power to do even greater things than He Himself did, that they should pray to God to heal the sick. He tells them to heal the sick. Do it. Yourself, He said. 

It is extremely hard to break this feeling that this is weird. Wrong. That I am somehow commanding God to do something. But I’m not. When I lay my hand on my daughter, and command her immune system to work perfectly, command her body to be healed in Jesus’ Name, I am not commanding God to heal her, I am commanding her body to be healed. 

Amen! Hallelujah! 


There are definitely times when God’s power heals us in this way…bam. Healed! 

But I am realizing that there are many times when He wants us to use the resources He created, to be healed. This is all a part of the balance I am working toward. 🙂 

I am going to highly, highly recommend a book here. 

Stop Battling Disease and Start Building Wellness: Your Guide to Extraordinary Health

This lady is alive today because she changed her diet and her lifestyle. And she spends her life bringing others back from the brink of death to health. 

God created food. He did not spray it with chemicals. He did not process it into something our bodies do not recognize. Eating processed food and chemicals creates inflammation in our bodies, which leads to all sorts of issues and diseases. 

We personally are not eating exactly the way we want to right now. This is because I had to slash my food budget in half. So I did. But when we can again, we will eat grassfed meat, grassfed butter, organic everything, free-range eggs, and sprouted wheat. Clean. Real food. Our health honestly is not as good as it was when we were eating more this way. But you do what you gotta’ do! I am praying for the blessing of God in our food budget. And excited about it coming!

I also really want to work on my kids. They need to learn to like healthy, real, clean food. Amen. 🙂 🙂 🙂

Don’t forget the chemical free thing! We got rid of our couch set recently. Set it outside. Because we were thinking possibly the roof coating we sprayed it with was off-gassing into our house, breaking down our immune systems. So now we sit on our two glider rockers, our inherited green chair, or the floor! It’s worth it. God doesn’t say, “Use chemicals and let them ruin your body, but I’ll heal you.” Sometimes He does that! But I believe He does want us to use our heads in this too. 🙂 


This last one is so cool. So cool! God created the herbs of the ground for us to use. He knew we would need them. And we do! I can’t wait to learn more and incorporate more herbs into our life! 

Here is a very cool story:

In the past month, we came down with a super nasty virus. Okay, it was super nasty for us. Others around us did not seem to struggle with it as much as we did, which brought us to wonder about our immune systems being compromised. But anyway, Talia has been congested for 3-4 weeks now. That is a veeeery long time for a baby to be snotting around, coughing, and not sleeping well! The nights were the hardest. Breathing through all that junk is just hard for babies. I put oils on her, I slathered her with garlic salve until she broke out in a rash, I prayed my little heart out. 

The other night, (Craig and the twins are in Kansas this week, so I have no one to stay with the other three kids if I need to run to the store.) I was praying about Talia again. And very clearly, I realized that I need to take her to Family Nutrition Center the next day. See, we are incredibly blessed to have this store in our town where the owner is a wealth of knowledge, and he loves to help people. His son is very knowledgeable as well. It is like taking your kid to the doctor, only you are prescribed only natural remedies and the doctor visit itself is free. 🙂

So I bundled the kids into the van the next day and, praying that the right guy would be there to help us, and that he would know just what Talia needed, we went. 

I walked into that store with half of my hundred kids. I was holding Talia and she wasn’t snotting around or even coughing. She was just in my arms. The younger guy was in the store. I told him that I need something for my baby girl. And before I could even tell him what her problem was, he said, “I have exactly what you need. Follow me.” I was like…okay?! I followed him. He took me straight to the herbal tinctures for kids. He gave me two of them that work really well together for congestion. He gives them to his kids. It’s fine for Talia. He asked if she also has any chest congestion. I’m standing there thinking…how did he even know she was congested? How did he know what I needed? 

I bought the two tinctures. Two days later and she is much, much better. I am sleeping like a very large, heavy log at night. (haha!) After a month of bad nights, this is aaaaahhhhmazing. I only feed her once or twice. She sleeps so much better. I rarely if ever need to wipe her nose anymore. Hallelujah!!!! 

Two things I learned again: 

God prepared the person to help us that day.

God created herbs because He knew we would need them. Use them.


And so there is my Heart on a Page. 

I am quite sure this is not complete. I still have soooo much to learn and grow in!

But this is where I’m at. 

And I find myself so incredibly grateful to God for everything. Just everything.

Be blessed this weekend!