Not often I’m sitting here…trying to post, and tears are running down my cheeks. The kids are in watching Wild Kratts. That’s the only way I can let tears run. They freak out if they see me crying. Enzo got really disturbed once when I lost it… 🙂 

Something happened this evening that pretty much laid me flat. Rock bottom. This journey of trusting God, listening to Him, and doing our very best to follow His lead…has only intensified in the past weeks. 

I often reach for worship music when I feel an intense battle. And more often than not, I go to Bethel Music station. This is the song that laid my heart out on the floor tonight…

I have come to this place in my life
I’m full but I’ve not satisfied
This longing to have more of You
And I can feel it my heart is convinced
I’m thirsty my soul can’t be quenched
You already know this but still
Come and do whatever You want to

I’m standing knee deep but I’m out where I’ve never been
And I feel You coming and I hear Your voice on the wind

Would you come and tear down the boxes that I have tried to put You in
Let love come teach me who You are again
Would you take me back to the place where my heart was only about You
And all I wanted was just to be with You
Come and do whatever You want to

And further and further my heart moves away from the shore
Whatever it looks like, whatever may come I am Yours
And further and further my heart moves away from the shore
Whatever it looks like, whatever may come I am Yours

Then You crash over me and I’ve lost control but I’m free
I’m going under, I’m in over my head
Then you crash over me, and that’s where You want me to be
I’m going under, I’m in over my head
Whether I sink, whether I swim
It makes no difference when I’m beautifully in over my head
Whether I sink, whether I swim
It makes no difference when I’m beautifully in over my head
I’m Beautifully in over my head
I’m Beautifully in over my head

  
 
Peace.
 
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